I was just in the shower reflecting on my life. Yes...I just now took a shower and it is 2:40 pm......get over it!! LOL If you saw me out around town earlier....The answer is YES....I was not yet showered...but I did take time to brush my teeth and get out of my jammies!! Anyway..... Reflecting.... I thought about the dreams that I left this little town with. I was going to be a fashion designer and live in NYC. I think I know what happened to that dream. My Momma prayed it away!!! LOL How could I leave this little town and say I would NEVER be back and then almost 20 years later live in the same little town and love it? Here is how it happened.... (Just in case you want to know!)
I went off to college at UCO in Edmond, OK. My second year I met Kevin Ruff. He was a cocky cowboy and he was pretty cute. I hadn't really noticed him because I had decided men were evil and should be disposed of! (Isn't it amazing how God can change our hearts?) He saw me walking through the dorm lobby and said....."You look like you need a beer!?!?" LOL That was our first date. (Please do not take advice from Kevin on pick up lines....this could have gone very wrong for him had I not really NEEDED a beer.) We knew pretty early that we were ment to be together. (ahhhh....) Now....lets skip forward several years. We were married in June 1996 in the beautiful Thorncrown Chapel in Eureka Spring, AR. Six months later we were in Kansas City and Kevin was starting chiropractic school. While living in KC we decided a city was not where we wanted to raise a family. Off we went.....Y2K didn't scare us....we loaded everything we had in a U-Haul truck and moved 'home' to open a practice. We had plans to start our business and THINK about starting a family. WOW!!! God took over! We opened his practice in February 2000 and added a precious baby boy to the family in November 2000. We didn't wait long, folks!!! LOL
This first addition to our home was Kameron. He was such a blessing. I wasn't sure being a Mommy was all that I had bargained for. I had a very severe case of postpartum depression. (Yes, I realize I told you I would make you laugh....sorry) I spent the first 11 months of my sweet boy's life in a deep and desparate place. The good news is......they make medicine for that!!!! After starting on my medicine and feeling much better, I began to talk about it. A friend said to me....."Caryn, I would have never dreamed you were not holding it together. You have always seemed to be the perfect Mom." That hit my heart. (Once again....God at work.) I decided on that very day that I would no longer HIDE the fact that I am an UNPERFECT Mommy!!! What a glorious day!!! You will be happy to know.....Kameron is a great young boy with very little emotional scars from the first 11 months of his life. All of the scars are from the years since the depression!!! LOL
Kylan came along 4 1/2 years later. He was the most gentle little baby. He played in the floor until he fell asleep. He didn't cry much. He was was simply EASY. Well.....when he was 6 months old something happened..... I found out I was PREGNANT!!!! (HOLY CRAP....this climax is almost too much for me and I'm telling this story!) Yes....pregnant! I laughed and laughed and laughed. Obviously....I did this to keep for crying!!!!! As it turns out....the Nuvo ring is NOT effective when you store it in the fridge like the instructions said. Yup....when I found out I was pregnant that silly ring was still in the fridge!!!! (Please don't do this!) When Kylan was 13 1/2 months old he welcomed his sister into the world! He didn't like her so much! Kylan was Momma's boy (and still is) and didn't want to share me! He found any way possible to get attention thus.....the birth of Wilbur Roundbottom. Wilbur is Kylan's alter ego that busts out of him when it is just too hard to be good. The first thing that Wilbur did was the day after Carli came home from the hospital. Wilbur swallowed an inch and a quarter drywall screw!!! No kidding!!! That is a story I will share in more detail one day, but just know it all came out fine!!! I knew I was in for trouble from that day forward.......and I was!!!
Miss Carli has been a new animal for our little circus! The fact that we have thrown a girl into the mix makes things CRAZY! It seems like little girls have thier own way of doing everything and that way always has a WHINE or a SCREAM!!! It wasn't long until Wormetta Roundbottom was born.
Note: The name Wormetta Roundbottom was STOLEN from Rosalee Eels. She used this name and I loved it! Please feel free to use it too! Wilbur was the name that fit for Kylan!!!
So....here we are. 2010 and I'm living in the circus! That is HOW I GOT HERE! It was with a lot of love and guidance and I know I am right where God wants me to be! I don't think living in NYC is for me....yet....but Kevin promises to take me one day! I'm just a simple Momma, living a simple life, in a simple town, with simple friends and simple family! I love being where God has planted me!!! I just hope he plants me in the SAND on the BEACH several times a year for the rest of my life!!!! Life is good today..... Life is good today!!!!
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